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Lingered Temptations- a monsters been caged. Tethered souls though I’d find you in any constellation, it’d be best to say I’ve been saved. Appraised from the afflictions of her alcoholic days, an alchemist emerging from the shadows of her grave.A shame to have to go through the obstacles, taming the beast longing to be fed. Hiding in plain sight though hoping your oculus of beauty still captures the light. Don’t give up the hope, defying the enemy only out of spite. In fact, she doesn’t even realize the strength she buries inside- yet despite telepathic connections in the physical separation, I heard you internally. A voice in my head I can’t separate from to only cause more agony. The pain of her tragedies, the longing of her soul waiting in holy matrimony. Was it us or them to settle for the platonic rather than atomic knowing love is quite simply bubonic? How lonely and empty the conversations have been only to realize it’s the yearning of your presence… maybe the late night presents. A gift bestowed from the heavens. A being who can actually be present. Who can forget those late night sessions and no I don’t mean the undressing late night sexing, where your body was cold and your spirit digressing, but the beast was let loose to release his caged thoughts into bittersweet laughter, we turned a moment into yearly chapters. Every time I thought it was forward he tricked me into going backwards. Though in your solace I found guidance, you took my hand and reminded me everything was okay even when we went silent. Your voice still remains in the carbon footprints of every enticement. A shallow memory of really juvenile excitements but I can’t lose focus on the prize to redeem. A wilted flower in thunderstorm dreams. A rainbow that’s been missed, looking for love and adoration for someone you can’t even kiss. You continue this stride of confidence yet, it only helps you hide. Who you are alone, those demons you can’t subside. Though the moments feel heartless, it’s the thoughts that come with it. To portray this immortal when life feels completely totaled, like every wrong that’s been done can simply coexist in the future realities of what we don’t even know to exist. March forward and true even when it scares you, to the broken, I leave this with you- never settle but defy everything that surrounds you. Your picture painted image just might be the cage you have inside too.