She is Me

Lord, I know what I've done

The places I've traveled

The depths I have sunk into

The oceans I have let slide

High tide comes and the waves subdue me once more

I made compromises with my demons just to bargain my time

Allowed my self respect to diminish because I felt unworthy of anything less

A desired mess- in the making of cardiac arrests

Health bargained with those equally as stressed

Looking for answers in humans who only wanted me undressed

But my soul carried more than my breasts

My temple was broken, the ruins begun and I let the cycles proceed

Letting the mommy and daddy lessons take control of me

The grip of temptation, the addiction- still I sat in silence in awe of your pleas

Your heart crying out to me when I still had no direction

Only an adolescent to learn the lesson of body for silenced discretions

Itemized parts for whatever the reason, though it always ended the same in every season

I looked for you while my back was turnt, waiting to meet you at the gates you reminded me I was earth bound but not for the hurt

My life with more meaning than I had ever learnt

Now an adult, my wounds now scars remind me of the resilience to your name

The days of death never in vain but my life through your veins

I wore the armor of truth and sorrow even if it was the road less followed

No longer with time borrowed, but free of the chains, the door now open I can see the thoughts now mustered in my brain

No longer mindless thoughts